I don't think it's a backslide because sometimes I still feel bad about everything I did Sometimes it feels like it used to before I had you all but its easier to accept it now And sometimes I feel like I can forgive myself
Yeah, me too. For so long. It's still kinda surreal sometimes, all of us here.
It feels like one. Especially when the same shit still bothers me the way it always has. Who gives a shit what my Dad said to me when I was 8 years old, like... fuck I'm in my 30s. It's so fucking stupid.
It's not stupid don't say that You trusted him and he hurt you that is not how a father should act It doesn't matter how much time has passed if we don't face what bothers us We will always be that little kid over and over
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It's
I mean honestly
world of difference for me.
It's just frustrating... thinking I'm making progress on something only to backslide again.
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I was so alone before all of you
I don't think it's a backslide because sometimes I still feel bad about everything I did
Sometimes it feels like it used to before I had you all but its easier to accept it now
And sometimes I feel like I can forgive myself
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For so long.
It's still kinda surreal sometimes, all of us here.
It feels like one.
Especially when the same shit still bothers me the way it always has.
Who gives a shit what my Dad said to me when I was 8 years old, like... fuck I'm in my 30s.
It's so fucking stupid.
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It's not stupid don't say that
You trusted him and he hurt you that is not how a father should act
It doesn't matter how much time has passed if we don't face what bothers us
We will always be that little kid over and over
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It feels stupid... it was so long ago.
I don't even talk to them anymore.
I haven't in years...